Dear God

Why is it that we pray and the answers are never any clearer than if we didn't pray at all? Why do you put people in our lives only to take them away faster than they even came. Why? Do you ever give a clear and concise answer or is that for when we are dead and then we get all of those questions answered, not that they will be of any value to us then. Why would you bring that into my life when I didn't want it in the first place and now leave me questioning if it is even still there? I have no clue if it has left me or if I am just supposed to be patient and it is what I have been dreaming about for my entire life but I just have to wait a little bit longer. WHy would you bring it into my life and have it consume all of my thoughts from the moment I wake up in the morning to the time I finally drift off to sleep. Only to not really even have it here with me, or even have contact with it. WHy would you do that? Is it some form of sick torture to get people to spend their time praying to you for answers when previously they have lived there lives with no questions to be answered and happy. Why would you bring something into somebody's life and have such a profound effect on the person in just moments that you were able to spend with it and then have it go missing. Why would you do this? SO now I am writing my questions instead of just praying, Why? Is it coming back? Be as clear as the air I breathe, not as muddy water, I need clarity. Are you testing my patience to see how long I can go on? I need an answer, why do you want me to spend so much time thinking about the unknown when you could answer me in less time that it takes me to breathe in. AM I mad at you? I don't know; I think that you frustrate me. I know that life isn't easy. But I thought that may be it was my time for everything to finally fall into place. I have forgiven people who have hurt me in the past, I have tried to help people when I see that I can, but now I thought it was my turn for complete happiness. You gave me 18 hours of it at the most and now it is gone. When will I feel like that again? When will the ending come? I have belief in you and I am asking for my questions to be answered, show me that you are still there. I am in need for you to carry me and speak to me directly and tell me that I am one of the loved.
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