Leave Me Alone

You know how we all have those kind of friends that always need something; a favor, and they always promise to return the favor. I'm sick of those people. I have a few people in my life that never ask me for favors and I think that they are the best because if they ever did need something they totally wouldn't take advantage of you because they aren't always asking you for something so you wouldn't mind helping them out. I can feel it I'm drifting to new places. People that I once had a lot in common with I no longer have anything to say to them and I don't want to tell them anything about me either. I agree with one of my friends that we have to surround ourselves with positive people because negative people just bring us down. What if your entire family is a bunch of pessimists though? For the most part my family always sees the negative. I remember times when everyone is angry and mad and I'm laughing at the situation, well that made them even more mad. Frustrated that I wasn't taking the situation seriously. I just don't see the point in stressing out about the little things. I went out for a few drinks with some friends on Friday night and wanted to really drink hard core but I just wasn't' into it and ended up at home by 2am, for anyone that has gone out with me lately knows that this is very early for me. I usually end up walking home the next morning. Guess who was out. The one man that I didn't trust myself around before. I avoided him like the plague. We made eye contact but I didn't go and say hello or acknowledge him when he was at the table. Quite proud of myself actually. The part that sucked the most was that I missed a call from the bf while I was in the bar. I should have brought the phone in with me! Oh, well. People piss me off too. Someone wants me to go down and help them move; they've never helped me move and simply put I just don't want to go and help. Another weekend that I will have to make up some excuse why I'm busy. Maybe my cousin will have her baby and I can use that as an excuse. So as much as people think that I like them and that I want to be around people I don't. I would be okay without having the phone ring all day or having no contact with anyone. I enjoy the peace. I think that one day my life will be filled with a husband and kids so I won't have any peace then I might as well enjoy it now!