Weekend

Well I wrote one more final today and now I only have two left to do. One is a take home exam so I should do well on it I think. The weekend was another turn of events. I am starting to wonder if I am someone that thrives on crisis. It seems like I try to always have a story or someone else's story to tell. Don't worry it is usually the basic stuff, nothing that you wouldn't tell anyone yourself if you are wondering what I am sharing. I wonder then is that why I always try to be involved with a whole bunch of things, so that my life doesn't seem as boring as it actually is. That I lay on the couch and do absolutely nothing when I am not out with someone doing something. I don't get embarrassed very often and I try not to have any regrets in life. But boy do I ever regret Saturday night. I am pretty sure that I completely screwed it up. And it makes me really mad if I did because it is my own stupidity that caused me to lose whatever I had in the first place. I sometimes wish I could just hit rewind and go back. So why did I do it? Did I learn anything? Yeah, that I shouldn't drink because I totally lose control. It pisses me off to that I can't just say, "look I do this to everyone when I've had too much, if you could see my phone you would see that I called everyone, my ex, my brother, a couple friends, someone who isn't even my friend, you weren't the only one!" And it isn't like I called and was telling you how much I liked you, I stay clear from that conversation, even when I am drinking. So I PRAY TO GOD that you forgive me and that you realize that I was just a dumb drunk girl and you will call me again. Although I already know that it won't be for about a month because you're going to Vancouver and San Francisco on your next days off. So that is it for today, I'm done ranting. Just forgive me.