Who am I

Man does time pass by rapidly. It seems like Christmas was just here and now Easter's come and gone and soon the summer will be here and Christmas again. Time seems to pass by so quickly as you age. Don't get me wrong I know I am not old by any means but I'm sure not 16 anymore either. I read a post from a friend recently and she talked about being a grown up. I don't know if I'm a grown up yet. I know at work I try to give off the impression that I am a professional woman but when I am away from work I try to act young and carefree all of the time. I've often said that it's like I have a split personality, I act one way at work and another outside of work. Maybe that is why I never combine the two. Friends have no clue what I do for a job and work people have no idea of what I do outside of work. And the thing is that I don't want the two groups to know both sides of my life. What would my work people think if they knew that I got drunk and lost all inhibitions sometimes? What would the friends think if they knew I went to work in business clothes all of the time and was in charge of spending their taxpayer dollars? I don't want to let everyone know everything about me. So who am I trying to be? I have no clue. I want to be seen as a "Woman" someone that you walk by and think, "Man, she has it all together," but I also want to be seen as fun and carefree. Can the two amalgamate and be one person? I have no clue. Or will I always be two different people?