Monday, March 27, 2006

Frustrated


You know how sometimes you complain and all you want is a sounding board and not really a voice to talk back this is how I feel right now. Everyone has their limits and knows what they can handle. I know what flaws I will accept and what ones I won't accept from friends, spouse, family, etc. I am the type of person (I think) that will let people make their own judgment calls. They know what they will put up with as far as people go and what they won't put up with. I don't remember telling people that they should get rid of a loved one or cut them out of their lives because I always think, "oh what if it works out, then my friend will always have it in the back of their mind that I told them to drop the person." I think that I get this trait from my parents. They never told me what a dumbass the last one was and they respected my decision and waited for me to figure it out on my own. I did eventually and I don't think that I would have listened to my family anyways and I think it would have drove a wedge between us because I would always remember what they felt about the dumbass. I believe that everyone has traits that are great and then they have the lousy ones that you either choose to put up with or you walk away because it is too much. To some people being a drunk would be a trait that they aren't willing to put up with. I am. Maybe I am because my dad was one and my mom put up with him and it all worked out for them. Maybe I am because I sometimes feel like I lose control with drinking and so I sympathize. Maybe because all of the other traits far outweigh that one thing and I am willing to look past the drunkenness. I don't know. All I know is that I don't get mad and I am still happy when I hear his voice, and I think that this is most important. I will decide when I have had enough and walk away. If I have been complaining I will stop because I know what he is and he was honest with me about himself so I know fully what I am getting into and it isn't something that he is hiding from me. So that is my story for today.

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