I know Why

So I have sat thinking, and thinking, and thinking about what happened and why. I don't have answers for the event but I've learned other things. I always think that I am brought into people's lives for a reason and usually I think that I am brought into their lives for me to help them. What if they were brought into my life to help me? I normally am not this open about God on this blog and usually save those conversations for my other blog but for some reason I wanted to post it here. Over the past few years I have backslid from God. I didn't know how to get back to where I had been before and it bothered me. I wanted to have that feeling of security that I had when I spoke to God daily and I could hear and see him answering my prayers. This past Christmas a friend told me that the only thing that they wanted to give me for Christmas was my relationship back with God. They didn't know how to give it though either. Dave's it. I know some people may read this and think that I am dreaming when I say this but it doesn't matter, this is my reasoning. I started to pray when Dave came into my life. God answered the prayers that he felt needed to be answered and the others he didn't because they didn't need to be answered. Then I started thanking God and I couldn't wait to talk to Him. When I started the relationship with Dave I wanted to be friends at the end of it no matter what happened. I now can be because I am grateful to him for bringing God back into my life even though he will never know this it doesn't matter. I have something better, something that I know is stable and the only way it will ever change is if I neglect it. So now I'm okay. I'm still going to go and try to get my stuff and face him and just see what he says but in all honesty it doesn't matter. He's not it and I have something better now anyways. So Dave, even though you will never know this thanks for bringing me back to God.