When you stop dreaming it's time to die

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Boys/Men

I am lost. I thought that we had an agreement that we both did not want a relationship and it was more of a physical relationship. Then last night he returned phone calls, called back when he was supposed to and then came over and we just sat and watched a movie and visited. We kissed a bit but that was it?! What the heck?? Then when we talked last night he said that we would have to hang out today. Then later on he said about 4 times how busy he was going to be today, was I supposed to offer my help? That is what a girlfriend would do, right? I didn't offer to help him though, I didn't' know what to do. We visited a lot though. We actually have a lot in common. Neither one of us is a hard core smoker, which I've never met another person that is like that either than me. So I'm confused. He told me that he wasn't into people last night that was why he wanted to come over. Then he also said that he blew off his friends to go and party to come and hang out with me. But I wasn't a booty call? I don't get it. I just realized that I probably shouldn't be complaining because I had said that I just wanted a friend to hang out with and do stuff with and it looks like that is what he is turning out to be and here I am complaining. Okay, I'll stop now. No more complaining. I'll just take it one day at a time, how cliche that saying is. One more thought though, I can handle "booty" calls because then I don't get attached but even though I say I want a friend to hang out with I'm scared to get any feelings for him because what if it doesn't turn into anything? AND I GOT FRIGGIN BUTTERFLIES LAST NIGHT!!!! Now I'm Hooped!!!!!!!!!!!!