Life is Much Better!

So I have been in pain all week and this causes me to be extremely grumpy! By Wednesday morning I'd had enough and off to the doctor's I went. Then realized that I did have a tooth that was cracked in half. This was a problem for a variety of reasons. One, I don't have insurance for another two months, the tooth is a tooth that has had a root canal and there isn't much tooth left, and my dentist is an hour away! So I was in pain, the doctor told me I was clenching at night. No I'm not; I know how my jaw feels when I am clenching and I'm not clenching. He ordered bloodwork and low and behold I am lacking in iron; possibly causing my teeth to ache! See I knew that I was lacking something and I wasn't clenching! I was able to get into the dentist yesterday and how wonderful it was! Tooth gone! As the dentist is cutting and drilling he is saying that it is coming out beautifully! Only a dentist could see beauty in extracting a tooth! So today my jaw hurts but I am able to chew and function. Didn't even take a T3 this morning! I hate taking those too! I tend to have really odd dreams when I take them. It's the type of dreams that you are sleeping but you aren't sure if you are actually sleeping or not. Last night I dreamt that I was driving with my mom and our road was gravel and I kept dozing off while I was driving and I almost hit 3 people who were walking on the road. Mom freaked out on me and then I couldn't remember if that actually happened or if I was just dreaming. Then for the rest of the night my sleeping was screwed up. Anyways it is Friday and I am so glad! Two days off. Although I really haven't worked that much this week it is still good that the weekend is here.

Sleepiness

I'm so tired of being tired. I have now reached a level of desperation and am taking sleeping pills. The over the counter ones don't work anymore. Now I'm going straight for the prescription. Saturday night I took two. I was totally asleep by 9:30pm but then awake at 7am, which is a long time but it still doesn't work out because for the previous few nights I only had 3 hours of sleep so one night of good sound sleep only makes me want more. Today is going to be the hypochondriac me coming out. My teeth hurt. I think that I have figured out that I am not taking enough calcium and this is the problem. I had been drinking soy milk a lot and then eating green leafy veggies. Some how I skipped out on the milk for awhile though and now I am trying to get in a whole bunch of calcium. I choked down plain soy milk last night, I have to go and buy some chocolate today. Then I had 4 caltrate chewy things today(I have no idea what you call them!) Then I took a sleeping pill last night at 9pm. I suppose it worked but it only does me well if I am not disturbed throughout the night. Someone called me at 10pm and that was it for the rest of the night. My teeth ached and I tossed and turned all night. At 3:30am I finally got up and took 5 acetaminaphine. Which I am sure has caused me to be even more tired. I popped two more this morning at 7 and then when I got to work I took two Tylenol. God, I need that soy milk. I am debating on whether or not just to go home until noon and sleep but then that will fuckme up and I won't be able to sleep tonight. Why is it that I just can't be totally healthy and fine?! Don't say it, it isn't the vegan thing. I feel really good about that. I do know though that I have problems every spring with sleep. So this year I thought that I would combat it with a trip to Mexico, that didn't work though so I am left to lie awake in bed night after night thinking because my damn mind doesn't turn off either!

My Personal Ad

So many times I have wanted to say to someone this is what you will get if you pick me. So I am laying it all out here. If you pick me you will get a woman who wants nothing more than to love you with her entire heart for the rest of her life. You will get a woman who will make sure that your lunch is made everyday and will even slip little notes in it telling you to have a wonderful day, just so that I can put a smile on your face. You will get a woman who will get excited when you call her and you will hear it in her voice every time. You will get a woman that is straightforward and honest. I am blunt and I won't beat around the bush and expect you to know what I am thinking or want. I will want you to be the same way. You will get a woman you will be the happiest pregnant woman on earth; even if I am hurling into the toilet everyday for the entire 40 weeks. I will be so happy to be having your child and love every moment of that growing child being in me. You will get a woman who will always put you and her children first. I will love every minute that I have with you and every moment I have with our children watching them grow. You will also get a woman you will analyze everything if you aren't honest with me and let me know what you are thinking. You will get a woman who doesn't get mad and yell but rather hurt and cry. You will get a woman who will tell you that I love you everyday probably a dozen times a day. You will get a woman who will love to clean our home and love watching you mow the lawn and then come in all sweaty and want to hug you despite the smell. You will get a woman who will need some coaxing to be spontaneous in the bedroom but once you make me feel comfortable I will be putty in your hands. You will get a woman who needs to be told that you find her beautiful and you love her body; and I will do the same for you. You will get an old-fashioned woman on one hand that will dote on you just because she wants you to know how much she loves you. You will also get an educated woman who has a mind and wants to discuss the bigger things in life. I admit that I am not all rosy all of the time. A certain times I am grouchy, the good thing is that I know when I am grouchy and I'll let you know first thing in the morning what type of mood I am in. You will be getting a woman who is patient because I believe that you are waiting for me like I am waiting for you to spend the rest of our lives together.