So this is the bike I am going to buy. It is a Harley Davidson Street Bob. Either this one or a Dyna Lowrider which looks pretty much the same. I'm not buying new though. I may try and buy one at Mitchener Allen. Anyways that's pretty much all I have to say today but I just thought I would post the picture!

Choose your life, choose your happiness.

I don't remember this picture being taken or even where I am but I stumbled onto it a few years ago and I love it. I know you can barely see my face but you can see my happiness and my joy. I want to keep that happiness and joy alive. I want to always remember that there are people worse off than me and that I have a pretty good life overall. I was talking to a co-worker today and she said that she would re-do her life over if she could. She said that she passed by so many opportunities, dating, marriage, children, all of it she let pass her by because she let her career control her life. I agree that career is important but it shouldn't be the only thing in life you accomplish. Life is way too short to only work. There is always someone else that could walk into the job you are doing and do it just as good if not better than you. When you die people aren't going to say "Wow they always stayed late agter work to finish up." Who cares? No one. I am going to work so that I can enjoy life, not so that I can have thousands of dollars in my bank account, maybe only one thousand dollars, but what do you need tonnes of money sitting in an account for? What are you saving for. The rainy days come and go, you should enjoy the sunny ones and not wait for the rain. When I spoke to her today I realized how sad her life was and I felt pity for her that she let life just pass her by. Now turning 50 she has no one to share her joys and happiness with.

Grumpy

I woke up in a bad mood because today I did have a bad headache. I just stayed in sort of a slump all day though. Not sure why. Lately it's really bugging me that I am the one to make decisions for my mom and I. I am the oldest and the daughter so she relies on me more so than my brothers but why can't she begin to include the sister-in-laws and put some of the responsibility on them. I already know that I am the one that will be left to make all of the decisions regarding their funerals if they haven't pre-planned them and this pisses me off. My brothers will be of no help in this area and I am not going to do well with this at all. Not that my parents are going to die anytime soon but it just irks me. I get told I'm a meddler in the family but my mom and dad constantly vent to me about eacother and my brothers. I am the one everyone calls to vent to. Even my one brother has started to do this and I am supposed to go in and smooth things over between everyone. Don't call me a meddler when you all are calling me and I'm not calling you! Even decisions, my mom can't decide anything. She calls me about how to parent my youngest brother. How the heck would I know I've never even had a baby let alone a 18 year old! She gets mad at him and calls me, tell him! The other night she called me at 11:30pm! I was sound asleep! And the only reason she was calling was because she was mad at him! Anyways that's my rant for today.

Dreams

So the title of my blog is "when you stop dreaming it's time to die". I thought I might as well vent a few of my dreams. This is truly the motto of my life. My mind never stops planning my next idea of what I want in my life. Today I thought up a motto all by myslef I might add.
Happiness is an expectation in life not an exception.
Anyways, I have decided that money is my goal right now. I want to get ahead. I no longer want to only bank on the next big windfall. I want to have a nest egg at all times. However, I do plan on spending some of the money I do make. I want a bike. I thought that they were so expensive until I foudn out that I could get a Harley Davidson Street Bob for $21,000.00, and yes that's Canadian funds. Now this may seem expensive but this is top of the line and brand new. I am not so discouraged now. I am going to get a used bike next year and I am going to tour around all summer. I want one so I'm going to get one. I have to first get my license but I just have to pick up a book and study for my learners and then work on my actual license. I am quite excited about this. My other plans are to get hair extensions to the middle of my back. Basically so I can braid my hair, put it in a pony tail, pig tails, whatever! It has been 10 years since I had long hair, it's time. Some people think extensions may be dumb, I don't and it's me that I have to make happy in my life so there. I am going to get my degree. One course at a time. I am only going to do one at a time and if I finish one in a month then I'll take another but I am going to finish the damn thing once and for all. I am going to stop answering my cell phone all of the time and making myself so available. I am going to take a getaway from the everyday. I am going to enjoy everyday like it's my last. I am going to eventually have a solarium like they have on Practical Magic. I love that movie, definately one of my favorites. Anyways those are my dreams right now. I'm sure that more will come with another day. Oh and I am going to lose weight. Now I have 6 lbs until I am under the 200lb mark. This will be a huge accomplishment. I weighed 186lbs when Dez and I ended and then over the past 2 years I gained back 30lbs. Since Christmas I have lost 10lbs and kept it off. I am slowly declining, maybe only a pound or two a month but as long as it keeps going down I don't care. Oh, I am also going to get my eyes checked and new glasses. So my dream for me by July 25th, 2007 is to weigh 185lbs or less, have long hair, be healthy, and new glasses, have a bike and have travelled out of the country at least twice, and be finished my degree.