So it's done. I don't know if he is choosing to end it but I am done. So what happened. Okay Tuesday he and I had been text messaging back and forth throughout the entire day. He wanted me to send him a picture and I told him that I wanted him to send me one first. He told me that I could take my own picture when I saw him the next night. So I thought, cool he is automatically assuming that we are going to get together tomorrow night rather than beating around the bush. So Wednesday came and I didn't hear from him all day. At 5 I sent him a text to see where he was. He didn't respond until 8:30 and said that he would be home soon and asked if I could pick him up, I asked if it was then and he sent back, "No sweatpea in 2 hours." Now he has never ever given me a nickname or called me anything either than my name, so I thought again that was cool. Well 2 hours came and went, 2 and a half hours came andwent I called him to make sure that he wasn't in a ditch somewhere. Turns out he hit a deer with the company truck and wouldn't be home until 1:30am. He asked if he could still come over. I said that I was still up so yes he could. So he came over, spent the night and yaddaa, yaddaa. Anyways, we didn't have really anytime together so there wasn't a whole bunch of talking or anything, I felt ripped off cause I had been looking so forward to seeing him and then got so little time. Okay, Friday night I went skidooing and then was at home at 1am and still felt like going out so I knew that some of my friends were out so I went to the bar. First time in my entire life that I have ever walked into the bar by myself. Anyways, they were all there so I went and hung out with them. Low an behold who else was in the bar but dave. I didn't bug him or go up to him until I had been there for about half an hour. I asked him for a cigarette. He said that he didn't have any. I said, "YOur a mother-fucking liar I can see them in your pocket." So he said well than take one. SO I did and left him. Then later on he and I somehow met up and he said that we needed to talk because all night he had been hearing that he and I were boyfriend and girlfriend. Right away I asked him from who. We went out into a more private area and I asked him from who and I followed up by asking who Novalee was. He said what, and then a guy came in and wanted to talk to him I siad that we were talking and dave said here's a cigarette we'll talk later. So anyways I left. Then he wasn't really alone for a while unitl he went walking outside so I went out but there were people there and then he proceeded to call some girls. So I'm done. I'm done because three times now he has gotten drunk and been mean for no reason. When he was telling me about people talking it was obvious that he was mad that people knew. So I don't know if he is mad because he is just secretive and he doesn't like people knowing his business, if he is embarassed to be with me, if he is trying to score with other girls and that screws it up if they think he is seeing someone or what. But I'm done. I was going to try and see him face to face and talk it out but I instead called. My message,
"I must be psychic cause I knew you wouldn't answer the phone so here's my message. You being pissed off last night about people saying that we are together didnt' come form me. I have never said that we are together the words have never come out of my mouth. In fact 2 months ago **** asked me if I was seeing anyone and I said no and she said are you sure, I said yes I'm sure. She said well Iheard that you were seeing Dave f***. I asked form who and she said that Novalee told her that you told her we were seeing eachother, and my comment to *** was who the fuck is Novalee****. So rather than me assume anything I asked you what we were and I was up front and honest that I didn't want a relationship and I thought that you were to so why would I go around saying that we are together if I told you I didn't want a relationship. SO that's my peace."
So will I hear from him again? Probably not. He isnt' the type to come begging and pleading. What am I upset about. That he seemed embarrassed, that he wasn't honest, that he was mean for no reason. Is it the old saying that you are mean and hurtful to those you are closest to because you know that they will forgive you. I'm not close to him, I thought I was but it si very apparent that he's a Dr.Jekyl and Mr.Hide. That's what's so frustrating, everyone that knows me and knows him can't understand his meanness. It's not his style. SO I have no clue. I'm done though.
So here are the girls and me at a Christmas party. Madison was being Miss. Shy all evening so she was more cuddly than usual and Jadyn was her usual giggly and smiley self. Overall the best part was the pinata I think. Madison got quite the kick out of hitting it and seeing the other kids hit it. I saw Sadie and Sabrina there and unfortunately they didn't recognize me. It has been about two years since I have seen them last and I have changed a bit, glasses, short hair and piercings. So maybe that was it. Of course their aunt didn't think to tell them who I was either though. Oh well. I have my own flesh and blood realtives to spoil and hug now and will have them forever and I don't have to ever worry about them forgetting me. On other news. No, the dork has not tried to make contact and he won't. I did find out though that he may have just been upset that people found out something personal about him. Why do I think this, well because I was talking to a friend and she wasn't seeing him and he had come over to her house and he asked if they "could keep this on the down low" that he had been over there. She found this odd and asked her friend why he would be like this and her friend just said that he is always like this and doesn't want anyone knowing any of his business. Does this make me forgive him and want to go running back? No, he is free to be as secret about his life as he wants, I on the other hand have my own life and I can choose to tell people whatever I want. So that's the verdict on that topic.
