Going to GNR!!

So saw an add for Guns and Roses concert yesterday and thought, "That would be cool to go to!" So checked it all out and bought tickets this morning, I had floor seats but took too long and lost them so now we are on the bottom level, row 14. TOTALLY Psyched about going. Checked with Guy and he said that he couldn't stand Axyl Rose and would never pay to go and see him so I told him that I wouldn't bother asking him to go then. Instead I'm going with Jen and her new man. It will be fun! I haven't been to a concert since Garth Brooks and that sucked!
Moving on to Guy, that's what I'm going to call him from now on. No clue what has happened but we have hung out a lot. Wednesday night, Thursday morning, talked Thursday night, and then spent the night last night and am going back tomorrow night. I was not expecting to see him this much at all. I still haven't said anything to him. I know, some of you are thinking, your just setting yourself up for heartbreak if you don't find out. I keep praying for timing. I guess I'm happy with the way things are and I don't think that I complain about it, and if I do please call me on it. If I'm happy the way things are then I shouldn't complain right?! So why am I not pushing, well because I am scared to lose what I have, I like the fact that we are moving so slow, and I mean that. I completely lost myself with the last dumbass and I don't want to do that again. I want to slowly involve him in my life, not have my life consumed by him. I want to become friends with him first and foremost. I want to slowly become that person that he just relies on and can't remember a time when I wasn't there. I don't want to be married until I've accomplished everything that I want in life. Paying off my debt, finishing my education, travel, enjoy being me. I want to do this now because I know that when I do get married and the whole kid thing I know that I will no longer think of me first and my life will be consumed by my husband and kids. So I want my time now. I have no idea if this makes sense but I woke up to him this morning and I am completely content. He is the first person that when I ask them what they are thinking he asks it back because he cares. So I'm okay. I'll take what I can get for now and I'm happy.

Big Sister

Madison is so precious and it is so hard to believe that she is a big sister because she is still so little herself! When I asked her to take these pictures she was so serious about it too which makes it seem like she's all grown up. I am sure that I am biased here but she seems so angelic too. I just love her to pieces, not sure if you can tell?!

So my car has been making a clunking sound for a little while (month or so). I know in a cars life that is probably too long to be clunking but it didn't seem to be affecting the way that it was running. Only when I make left handed turns does it affect it. Anyways, yesterday I make an appointment I bring it in. The mechanic and I take it for a drive, when I drive it the thing clunks, when he drives it there is no clunk. So anyways he tells me to bring it back in the morning and drop it off, they will put it on the hoist and look to see what it is. I dropped it off at 8am, at 1pm I still had heard nothing so I give the shop a call. The nice receptionist tells me that "there are many things wrong with your car and since 11am I have been trying to work on getting a quote." She will call me back when she has a quote. Now nothing in that sentence sounds good at all. Dollar signs are flashing through my mind, is this going to be a thousand or thousandS of dollars to fix my car. A thousand I could see, with labor and parts and stuff but if it's more than that oh MY GOSH!!! I'll be driving a horse and buggy! That is if I had a buggy or a horse that was even old enough or trained to pull a buggy! Now for something else. Language, it changes with time. Sixty years ago people with developmental disabilities were referred to as imbecile, morons, idiots. Very common derogatory slang in today's world. Nobody even recollects that you are possibly referring to someone with diminished mental capacity. Twenty years ago it was retard. Now I work in the field and use the word a lot. Do I associate it with someone with a developmental disability? Nope, I associate it with an idiot, moron, or imbecile, OH, same thing. It pisses me off when people are supersensitive to language. From now on I only want to be referred to in the womyn species because absolutely every reference to the female gender has man, male, or men attached to it. Do I get offended now that we are living in the 2000 and women are of equal opportunity? Absolutely not! So why the rant? Someone in our office bitched out one of our finance people about using the slang retard. A finance person did not take this job because they want to better the lives of people with developmental disabilities, they took it because they like playing with the numbers of our budget. Grow Up, and take a pill.